Recently I’ve had to deal with some issues that would make a Marine cry. I look at myself and I think of what I can do to improve myself, what I can do to make myself a better father, son, boyfriend, human being.
I have a lot to learn, but I find myself wanting to put my walls back up. I’ve learned allright, but it has been the opposite of what I thought. I thought that sharing, being johnny-on-the-spot for my friends would teach me. I thought that perfecting communication skills would make me better. That working side by side would increase my trust.
I was sooo wrong. So I find myself putting back on the armor that i so wanted to shrug off. Raising the guard and manning the causeway.
I don’t know. And at this point, I don’t care. I just want to get through these next few weeks, get ready for the turmoil of the Summer, and prepare.
